埋了，藏了，忘了

对你的关心，埋了；
对你的爱，藏了；
你给的回忆，烧了；
终于，你，我要忘了。
这是唯一的结局，
这是大家期待的结局，
于是，我顺其自然的。。。
要亲手结束一切，痛，很痛，
然而，痛了以后又是一片蓝天。

星期四，突然看到了一个很熟悉的电话号码，好像很久没看到了，有点吓了一跳。难道他知道我星期五在槟城？不是吧！缘分就是这样，明明在同一个地方但是却见不到面！不过也好，见了又怎样？有话题吗？当他问我要不要见面的时候，我不想，真的不想，因为我正在努力忘记，我不想把烧掉的回忆找回来！

一个熟悉的陌生人

前一个月的生活真的很空白，每天都不知道自己在做什么？在想什么？好像把自己藏了起来，好像鸵鸟一样！从黑暗中走出来的感觉真好，有如重见光明的感觉。说真的我还是会想念，会怀念，但是都只是回忆。一切已经成了回忆！我对自己说过，我要还回我的脸一对笑容！^.^ 不管怎样，我还是会笑！^.^

虽然偶尔我会很想知道他的消息，他过得好吗？但是我已经没办法再知道了！再也看不到了！变成了一个熟悉的陌生人。大家都很伤，是时候疗伤。我很害怕会触景伤情，但是我还是要面对，星期五就给自己挑战吧！

宽恕

在 Eat Pray Love 的书看到了这句话， 「如果愛一個人，就愛他；如果想一個人，就想他並且指引和關愛他，然後放下他。」於是，無論我們曾經如何，都請記得輕輕放下，不要繼續背著那些沉重的記憶和負擔前行。

我們對自己和他人的生命，所該給予的永遠只有愛與祝福。愛是生命傷痛的唯一解藥，愛是一切的答案，而愛永遠得來自寬恕。

宽恕自己，宽恕别人！

211010

Today is first day i din get his sms. I purposely wanted him to do that.If i still contact with him i will really become third party in his relationship, that not i want!
Ended a relationship with anger and hate feeling not the thing i wanted but finally i did it. Ya, i will not use to it. But the pain and sadness will reduce day by day and the memories also will disappear soon.

Always have a nice day and safe drive!

阴毒

阴毒，今天终于有人给我戴上这个名誉！要看清一个人的真面目并不难，只要你做了一件他不能接受的事，他就会把对你的好统统忘记！永远都会有一个污点！没关系，就让我成为阴险的人。

20102010--3

Today many things had happened.At first i really don't want to mention but he too good to me, i felt bad, i gave him hints, at last i told him. I really sincerely apologize to him. He is the one who care and hurt me the most and also the one i love the most. I knew i hurt him badly, he never thought i will do such thing. Just like i also never thought he will fool around me. I actually until now i still cant forgive him although he thought i am ok.

I know he hate and angry me now, me too!He thought i was revenging. He thought i had psychotic problem. Please wake up ok! Now is the time to solve problem...

If really is true love, she will forgive what you had done. She willing to wait you. Just don't tell lie, don't cheat her. I don't know i everyday wait for what? All my thought just him. Why until now i still care his feeling? He deserved for it. Why i still want to help him to solve the problem? Stupid and ridiculous!

20102010--2

Apologize accepted... Hope that someone really will keep the promise, no matter what had happened and not given me fake promise d.

Today also a good day for me, my boss approved my transfer. I hope i can transfer out as soon as possible. I need a new start, really need it. I am tired d.

20102010

Today is 20102010, a meaningful date and also once in the life time only. i sincerely want to apologize to someone who all the the while so care to me.. I am sorry!

Can tell me why?

I don't know why sometimes i still will wait for your sms, still will have the expectation, still will reply your sms! May be this is a habit, but both of us already knew this is impossible. Why still want to continue? You care me, i also care you but for what reason? When the time i wanted to give you chance, u rejected me, u made me become hopeless. I really hope can change my heart. Why i still also care about you, your daily routine, your safety, your everything even will remember your family things and still willing to help. Why i am so stupid??? These things supposed to be done by other but why i still care? Why?

Why this bonding can't beak?

Don't ask

What can I help you? What can I do for you? I always heard this question... Don't know how many times d? Don't ask if you can't do it? For me, if you can't do it's very ridiculous for you to ask me? You never understand my feeling, how i suffer, how i pain, how i lost my smile, how i lost my time..... you never understand because you never test!

All the while you just gave me fake and invalid promises but until now you never do anything!! Please think what you want! Don't ask what people can give you, ask what you can do!

按兵不动 VS 打草惊蛇

看不破的永远是真相，道不清的永远是谎言！真相都是残酷的，但是还是必须接受；谎言永远都说不清，但是有时候还是要说!因为好奇所以就去发掘真相，知道后又觉得残酷！按兵不动有时也是一种很不错的做法，打草惊蛇是一种鲁莽的做法！每个人都有自己决绝事情的方法，我应该多多学习！

梦

有多少爱可以重来...又在听这首歌... 今天真的很巧，大家都一起想起这首歌，其实这首歌可以带出两种意识，不知道我和他所了解的是同样的吗？还有一首歌宇桐非的感动天感动地也是相映着我的心情。

最近很多人都问我，你瘦了，变美了，变年轻了？还问我怎样减肥？我不知到如何回答，因为我不是故意减肥的，是无意的。我可能应该学Hebe在寂寞寂寞就好唱，只不过流了几公升的泪所以才变瘦！ 哈哈！开玩笑！难道我以前真的很肥，很丑，很老吗？？？

昨晚的梦真的很幸福，幸福的家庭，幸福的三人旅行，幸福的一起用餐。但是都只是梦，一醒来就没了！希望今晚还会有这样的梦！

人的生命其实真的很脆弱哦，不能预测下一秒要发生的事情，如果昨天就这样走了，就不会有梦，就不会再和自己身边的人在一起。很庆幸的躲过了一劫！在那一刻，我好像醒了过来，我还有很多事要做，很多话要讲，很多地方要去，还有要知道结果！很庆幸啊！！！！

分享

这是今天学泡的两杯咖啡,味道不错！呵呵！有机会的话很想和某人分享！

~Get Well Soon~

With all my heart, i wish you get well soon!

祝福。关心

他病了，我也病了！大家都好累！他说只想关心我，我其实知道为什么，我同样也有这样的感觉！不一样的是，我不能轻易说出口，可以说口是心非！

我只能把我对他的祝福藏在心里，希望他感受得到.同样的祝福，同样的关心，只是不一样的表达方式！
期许大家的病很快就会好起来！

I don't want

Love made me ended in sickening heartbreak. I don't want to be loved anymore. I don't want to have a xxxx... I want my life back. How could I turn back now, though??

"Go back to bed, close you eyes and stop crying!" Go back to bed because I love you. Go back to bed because the only thing you need to do for now is get some rest and take good care of yourself until you know the answer. I love you that why i care you. Let me take care of you.
(Whenever i cried, i heard his voice, he seem so near to me cuddle me to bed.)

"The only thing more unthinkable than leaving was staying;the only thing more impossible than staying was leaving. I didn't want to destroy anything or anybody. I just wanted to slip quietly out the back door, without causing any consequences and then not stop running until I reached Green land."

～钟情于巴厘岛日落，我会再与你有约～

好美的日落，无论我怎么抓，都不会落在我的手里，我只能站在一旁远远的看着它。看着它慢慢的落到地平线。日落虽然很美但是它太短暂了，一眨眼就消失了！我的幸福也如此！



潮汐涨落，落日晚霞。好喜欢这张照片!
人生总有低潮和高潮，晚霞后也会有美丽的晨曦。



The day is ending.It's time for something that was beautiful to turn into something else that is beautiful. Now, let go.


～钟情于巴厘岛日落，我会再与你有约～