生气

我生气他又再不诚实，我对他又再失望了。当我最需要他的时候，他不在，他很开心的出国旅行。我真的很讨厌他再欺骗我。我不是spare tyre,不是你没有了才找我，我有我自己的自尊。第三次骗我了！你要我怎样再相信你！你每次冲动的说想要跟我在一起，过几天后你又会说你最喜欢的是她。答应过我的承诺一个都没做到，有做但是是和别人。想起我真的很心痛，做梦都会哭。每次你需要我菜会找我，我是那么好欺负吗？你一直觉得我不会离开你，但是你做的一切一切在逼着我离开你。难道我没资格找到一个真正爱我的人吗？我一定是后备的吗？

"曾付出的愛，永遠都在，就算不被接受，就算被人遺忘，也無法改變確實的存在。因爲無所求的愛，永遠讓人懷念。"

I cant deny that i still love you, the love will never forget and end. But i feel very weak now, i am not brave enough to accept what you promise. When i wanted to say yes, my mind will pull me back. I also very struggle. Other people dun understand why i still treat you so good, why still care about you, they said not worth it because you hurt me badly! They just told me what i did was right, asked me looked forward and not turning back.

Yesterday when i slept, i suddenly can feel my tears was dropping from my eyes. I don't know why it happened. After that i know why, although i told myself dun mind that he lie to you again, but in fact i mind! I always have a dream to go travel with him, what he proposed i really think and plan. I got asked him, that he really want to go? If he really want to go i dun mind go to the same place for second time and can become his tour guide. But that time he told me he got financial problem, then i just silent! But he actually went there with another people and lie to me he was outstation! i speechless!! He always ask me what i want, i always tell him, but he always forget! He just selectively remember what he want! He just care about his feeling! I am not you spare man! I treat u with all my heart but you share me your heart with other!

U made me more and more away from you!